We Weren't Born To Follow (Bon Jovi)

YouTube here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oY_RY6CBfCI

This one goes out to the man who mines for miracles
This one goes out to ones in need
This one goes out to the sinner and the cynical
This ain't about no apology
This road was paved by the hopeless and the hungry
This road was paved by the winds of change
Walking beside the guilty and the innocent
How will you raise your hand when they call your name?

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah,
We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, ooooohhh, Yeah

This one's about anyone who does it differently
This one's about the one who curses and spits
This ain’t about our living in a fantasy
This ain’t about giving up or giving in

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah,
We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, ooooohhh, Yeah

Let me hear you say
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, oooohhhhh, Yeah

“Guitar”

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah,
We Weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
And that your saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, ooooohhh, Yeah

taken from: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/bon-jovi-lyrics/we-weren_t-born-to-follow-lyrics.html with several (many!) corrections.

I MOVE ON

I won't stay in this static stance for a long time.  It has been a long three years and I always wait for weekend since a few months ago.  Now it's the time for me to move on.

I've prepared for this day since the first day I enter my career, that it is only for temporary.  I AM NOT MY CAREER.  I never identify myself with any labels this world can label, expect naturally, I am my parent's boy and my wife's husband.  But that is the only two things that feels real.  For a long time, I'm a also a part time investor, business owner, gamer, writer, aikidoka, friend, etc.  I'm a lot of of people into one.  But this "staff" role is taking about 95% of my energy and leaving the 5% to share between the others.  Why?  Because I'm a naturally morning person, about 60% of my work is done before 11 am.  And after 6 pm, I almost shut down.

The so-called "sacrifice" is not worth it.

I can't concentrate in the office is the other reason I need to move on.  Despite the bad office layout and lack of privacy and the constant interruption from my colleagues, I also have about several things in my mind at a time.  For example, my wife, the stock market, my business, my apartment rent, etc.  And I can't focus on any of them in the office, or just the one-hour-time-at-lunch to do it all.  It's painful.  And also stupid in a way, I think.

I should have move on a long time ago, but I still need the financial support and eventhough it's meager, but I still manage to do things with my salary.  Not anymore.  Since the business is expanding, I don't need any salary to support myself anymore.  And that's it.  That's the trigger for me to move on.

Wherever you go, go with all your hearts, Confucius once said.  I go with all my hearts now.  Leaving nothing behind.  Starting today.  I'm no longer a "staff".  I'm what I naturally be.  A human with many interests and the will to pursue that interest, with all my heart, to the limit.  If, there is a limit after all.

And guess what, the one closest to me is supporting this decision 200%.  That's why I love her so much.  :D

The Rose (sung by Westlife)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxRCMgEv4W0

The Rose (Amanda McBroom)

Some say love, it is a river

That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love, in the spring
Becomes the rose

Memories

I've just looked at some tagged photos in my facebook. They are full of times that I've forgotten. Times in the school,.in the college... Times when I'm "stuck" with my condition. Maybe the time when the only choice I have is to finish the school/college... still... it was a good time. It triggered me... how I wonder now of who I was. I was someone else not me, and I'm going to be someone else again. So, who am I??? I'm just a soul fleeting temporarily in this space-time... I come and go, never stay the same.

I wonder when the future me see me now, what will he think?

Claiming the Calmness

Something I rarely do these days because too busy doing something else...
It feels liberating.  Should do more.

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